I’m so incredibly exhausted. These 11 hour shifts are killing me. Every part of my body hurts…and I feel like my head is in a constant state of spinning in circles. Honestly, I feel like I’ve just run a marathon. A marathon that never ends. And yet I can’t sleep. Not when you’re not here. Our bed feels so empty without you lying next to me. I hate this. I hate that I never get to see you any more. I get home from work and you leave for work. You get home from work and I leave for work. That’s our life now. And while I understand that this is how it has to be for the moment…I still don’t like it. I miss you. I miss falling asleep in your arms. I miss waking up in the middle of the night and feeling you next to me. I miss coming home to your kisses. I miss being able to make love to you all night and cuddling with you just as the sun begins to rise. Please come home to me soon. I’m going crazy without you, darling.
I promise you it will get better though. Please don’t worry. I promise you that someday we’ll get our heads above water. We’re going to make it. We’re going to prove them all wrong. It’s a long road, but we have to keep walking…hand in hand…we will make it.
I love you bay bay. Always and forever. Thank you for teaching me how to live.
